To blog or not to blog

Here’s the truth. I miss blogging. So much. I love sharing my feelings and really creating a picture of what’s going on with me with the perfect words in hopes of encouraging or relating to even just one other person, but what do I blog about now?!

It’s feelings Friday (a common day in my blog life prior to having my second) and I’m laying in bed having all the feelings. 

Is this a fitness blog? A mom blog? A place to send my customers?! I think I got so very caught up in life lately that I lost focus of what this even is for me. 

I mean I’m currently laying in bed having sat on the couch for the last two hours watching Gilmore girls having skipped my workout today due to #babies and #toddlers wearing the same thing I was wearing yesterday and wondering why I’m still wearing socks. 

My brain is mush these days, and figuring outa schedule with little ones and hoping to fit in hubby time and business and school … what on earth was I thinking?

I know what I was thinking, that I have this INCREDIBLE opportunity before me to follow a passion while I’m on maternity leave and I’ve never been so busy in my entire life but never have I ever felt so light about all the things I have to do ❀️ I mean seriously it’s not a tremendous burden I just want to
And my blog patiently waits for me to come back to it. 

I envision my blog to have a love bucket that only gets filled when words are gifted to it’s blank spaces (ok so my blog is essentially me) and it always knows I will fill its bucket. And I think that’s why I don’t worry about it too much. 

Because I know I’ll always come back to it. I’ve been blogging for YEARS. I’ve met some very cool people through blogging, one I have yet to fly down to go for a run with in Seattle 😜 and I know it is patient and it is for me. I’m always honoured to know my words have touched others but deep down my blog is for me. 

And I think that will get me writing again. I’m done trying to make it a place for people to find me as a coach and to add recipes and yadda yadda yadda. Time to get back to blogging basics. 

This journey has been a primarily selfish one and I’m going to keep it that way. My blog fills my heart and soul and I pray it connects with other hearts through my outpouring but if it never did, I’d still keep writing.

So look out, more of me is headed your way. Raw unedited (ok SUPER edited) me. 

Thanks for being patient πŸ’‹